I have been having ups and downs with my body recently. I know I should be so proud of all the weight I've lost, AND I AM, but my body is changing shape.
As I've been strength training more and more, I am getting more muscular. The top half of me from the waist up in getting leaner, stronger, more defined while the bottom half is building muscle and my thighs and butt are growing. It's a COMMON issue with women who crossfit. I've talked to my female coaches and some of the other female athletes at my box, and they all agree that it takes some time to get used to, but once you do, and you realize what your body is capable of doing, a mind shift happens and bam...it's no longer a concern.
I had that mind shift happen today and it totally made me #rethinkmyday.
What was my ultimate goal when I started CrossFit En Fuego? I wanted to become stronger. I wanted to be able to pick up my dog. I wanted to be able to do a pull-up. And I have certainly become stronger. And if I had to do it, I could pick up 2 Matthew's (my dog, he weighs 120lbs.) Pull-ups are still a work in progress but at least I've gone down in assisted band color/resistance!!
I stepped in to my box this morning and saw the WOD posted. And then Coach Josh explained something that was written on the board but that we sometimes overlook. 1 big word and 1 big phrase. HEAVY & NOT FOR TIME.
This is when the phrase #rethinkgyourday started playing over and over in my head and I decided that not only would I go HEAVY, I would go for my max prowler push and sled pull. Like over 200 pounds. I have wanted to pull what I lost since the beginning on September and have been training hard. I've been pulling 45 pounds for a mile for at least a month. I didn't want to pull 200 pounds for a mile, just 40 yards.
Could I do it??
YES!! I did it!! It was heavy. It was challenging. I had to stop at least once and regain my footing because I was a little unbalanced. How did I manage to carry this much weight around on my body on a daily basis? I have no idea.
Then it was time for the push. I haven't really been practicing the prowler push and really didn't know what I'd be able to do. My friend Kris had just finished her push, and was waiting and she jokingly said "can you push me back down?" and I said YES, jump on! Again, I had no idea what I'd be pushing. Turns out I pushed over 230 pounds!!
I didn't even realize that a photo was snapped until Coach Jen put my camera back down on the weights. I love that.
So I did it. I pushed and pulled the amount of weight that I used to carry around on my body.
Then I came home and took a picture of my arm. Would it be visibly noticeable that I had gained muscle?
I can see it. And I'm very happy with it. I don't think my extra skin is ever going to go away. But I'm okay with that. Look at the muscle that is building on top of it. That's proof that my hard work is paying off!
What can you do to #rethinkyourday??